Back to my normal life

I have not written a post in months. I was so consumed by the custody battle that I couldn't bring myself to sit and type. Besides you would have gotten sick of reading the F word over and over again. The battle is not over but at least life has a sense or normalcy again. I am back to enjoying my day to day with my kids.

I wanted to write this story down so that when my kids are older we can read it and laugh about it all over again....

Last Friday my seven year old daughter performed in her first ever lip sync concert at her school. We had many weeks to prep for this. She chose the song Make it Shine by Victoria Justice. Such a perfect song for my little super star. She had the dance down all that was lacking was her lip sync skills. Sometimes she would barely even move her lips. The night before the big show I had her watch a portion of Rupauls Drag Race. Perfect way to learn to lip sync. Plus Mommy loves Drag Queens.

Friday after school was spent doing hair and makeup. We bought an new outfit and cleaned up what used to be her white shoes. Time could not go fast enough for her. She was so excited and we were so excited for her.

We were one of the first families to arrive at the school. This was because my children were insistent we go ridiculously early so that we could get a front row seat. I must say I am kinda glad that we did because that place was packed. Another benefit of getting there so early is that all my kids got to volunteer to pass out the programs to people as they entered the building. My step son was a door holder and my daughter passed out the programs. My four year old son was not about to stand around and watch everyone else help. My oldest took him under her wing and made sure he was a pro at it. I walked down to check on him to see how it was going. He was so happy to be helping and interacting with so many people. I suggested that he say Welcome to the lip sync, when he handed out the programs. He quickly responded and said " No Mom I say Enjoy yourself" Only his version of the word enjoy was slightly different than mine or yours would be. His little boy speech impediment was to cute for words. I was definitely a proud Mama that night. Cameryn did great. She has not a single nervous bone in her body. She ended her song with two round offs and a big smile. The crowd cheered and in that moment she was truly a super star.

Baggage

I know that everyone comes with a past. Most of those pasts include baggage. I long for the day that we can leave it all at baggage claim. Maybe someone will come along and love it more than we ever did. Maybe if we are lucky enough that baggage will get thrown into an incinerator never to be seen or heard from again. It sounds terrible I know but there are days where that just seems like the only solution. We are stuck dealing with the decisions we made long before we should have been allowed to make any decisions.

Ex's are like the plague I swear. Although, sometimes I would rather bleed from my eyes than to actually have to interact with them. I have a happy care free life. We have no relationship issues what so ever. This is not an exaggeration by any means. We have never had a drop down blow up fight nor have either of us opted to sleep on the couch. For some reason though each of our ex's seem to constantly throw wrenches in the everyday routine. If his ex is not calling and asking for more money mine is calling to say he still has no money. In theory our ex's are perfect for each other. They both are users and manipulators. They sponge off of others until there is nothing left to be had. It is then that they turn on the hand that fed them for years. Living in their own world of delusions where THEY are center of the universe. Neither has ever done anything wrong and will most definately never admit fault in any situation. Both of them are good at playing the victim role at every turn. Since neither one actually is wealthy and have nothing to be used for they would not last long enough for any of us to get pleasure out of it. A girl can dream though right?

Just so sick of bull shit and predictability of the conversations that go on. It did not work so please please move on, grow up, and stop LYIN! You no longer have to impress the other. Focus on your own life and short comings and leave us alone. That is all.

Life as I know it

I am completely settled into my new house. Minus the finished basement. We have yet to do anything in the 1100 square feet of open space. So far I have my bedroom set up in the giant expanse that is the downstairs. Its kinda nice though its like my own house away from the madness that is six kids crammed into the other 1100 square feet. We even added a puppy play mate for my other dog. Things are great and I could not imagine my life any other way.

Fall means cheer and football in this house. Something that was never possible when I worked full time. Now a days I am a full time taxi driver to my kids. Between practice and games I feel like the next two months will be spent in my vehicle. Speaking of which I may want to clean it out LOL. Living out of my car with all these kids tends to get messy. The floor of my car is layered with McDonalds Happy Meal boxes and empty water bottles. Throw on top of that cheer bags, diaper bags, and blankets. I am content with the whole thing though.

This weekend is Labor Day weekend and I am so looking forward to a whole day with my man and the kids. He works so much it is rare he ever has an entire day to spend with us. I will update you on the events of the weekend later. Can't let the cat out of the bag just yet.